Month: January 2015

I have lost my edge! Have you? How do you keep going on?
Recently, I have struggled with neck pain and now my stomach is bothering me. Instead of giving my sickness, aches and pains to the Lord, I have become obsessed with it. I think of nothing else but the pain I feel. I am tired, I am in pain and I am fed up. Did God ever tell us he was fed up with us? To get out of His kingdom? No, he continues to see thru all the garbage we throw at him and that we throw at each other. I have been throwing so much garbage out, I have lost my way, I have buried myself in it.
In the story of the talents which Jesus bestowed upon several men. Two of them increased their talents but the third man buried it. He gave his talent back without taking a risk to help himself. You can ask yourself, “What have I done with the light? With my gifts?
I have lost my talents and my way because I focused on myself, I became selfish. Each day is a blessing, your gifts are a blessing and they are to be shared with others. Don’t squander them or use them all on yourself. Be bold share your stories, your life and your talents. For those who give receive more in return. It’s funny how when I give myself to others my troubles and pain seem to diminish. [Be grateful]

Good morning God, how are you today? You know I am tired today because I did not give my anxiety to you. I worried and fretted over the past and the future. Ignoring the present with you. How silly we are? The people you created! We don’t listen and we worry about ourselves as if we have control. God I love you through and through even though I know that you love me more than I can ever imagine. Here I am on a silent retreat wanting to scream. Scream about all the injustices that have been done to me and others. Let me not exclude all of us in this world who have suffered from the cruelty of another. Let me not ignore another’s injustice is worse than mine. That my complaint cannot be anymore worse than anyone else or what your Son suffered for us. Let it be known that when we suffer an injustice it is not to become a victim rather there is a reason for that injustice. One must rise to the occasion and use one’s gifts as God intended to make sure others are not also afflicted by the injustice. So however slight or severe the injustice, one should answer their calling to take care of things according to the Lord’s will. We must discern over all our actions, knowing and feeling we are acting on God’s behalf for the great glory of the Kingdom. It is our responsibility to not worry or fret over these matters but have the compassion to move to action. And always give it to your higher power so you can right the injustice, move past it and move into the present. Amen.

The scripture below hit a cord in me, as I wonder what I am going to do with God today.  See God enters our soul, penetrating our very existence when we are open.  So often we are a closed book because it takes a lot of courage to  receive the work God has envisioned for us.   And we find ourselves struggling within because we are fighting God on what he has in mind.  We tend to be frightened or timid or insecure about our decisions.  Know that one needs to have confidence and trust to discern and reflect on God in order to render his works.  Let us find a way for God to enter our Soul’s, to let Him in and move us in the direction we are intended to go.  Let us find a way to be vulnerable and open so we can receive the vision in our lives.  Let us be patient so God can lead us in his time and not ours.  Let God enter your Soul so we can all be one in building the kingdom God intended for us to have on this earth.

Reading 1 Heb 4:12-16

The word of God is living and effective,
sharper than any two-edged sword,
penetrating even between soul and spirit,
joints and marrow,
and able to discern reflections and thoughts of the heart.
No creature is concealed from him,
but everything is naked and exposed to the eyes of him
to whom we must render an account.

Since we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens,
Jesus, the Son of God,
let us hold fast to our confession.
For we do not have a high priest
who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses,
but one who has similarly been tested in every way,
yet without sin.
So let us confidently approach the throne of grace
to receive mercy and to find grace for timely help.